here on day 141 sober I have been starting to get those thoughts of "oh I can smoke a little now" and also lots of dreams about smoking, thinking about it more etc. Then I went and read my early days on this post and how much of a struggle it was- and also how chaotic things feel when I am smoking- and it eased the cravings some. It is easy for me to think I can smoke occasionally but in reality it would throw me back into the chaos of addiction.
Still working on health issues-- improvement since I started a new thing but still a way to go.