Struggle with facing unearthed emotions
I was a smoker for 20 years and went through many boughts of trauma during that time. I used the weed to numb my feelings and help me avoid the emotions related to the trauma. I am not one to be shy about my trauma so I will admit it includes rape, abusive relationship, the loss of my father, my child, and seven other close people in my life. All of that trauma is now coming to the surface now that I am almost three years sober. I just don’t know how to handle it all. I see a psychologist and psychiatrist and have seen a grief counselor for two years In the past but now that I don’t smoke, all my emotions are raw. Does anyone have any suggestions or stories on how they made it through these tough times? My doctors, family, and friends say it will get better with time but i’ve Always thought time is a bad four letter word. I need to know how to deal with the now. Thanks in advance to anyone that can help!