This was from earlier when I was wandering around "downtown" (Name of Town We Are In). I usually feel such a comfort at just being here, but tonight I get lost and dropped off somewhere I don't belong. I am fighting the eating disorder with everything I have. I am asking God that if I really try to do this, He will help me out of this mess.

My friend wont respond to my request. If he does anything, it will be behind the scenes and I will just get interviews.

Im terrified of moving out there, but I just cannot stay here.