you all are so amazing. The support here has been jaw dropping. Thank you.
My husband kept telling me "I am so proud of you. One day at a time!" last night.
I know my drinking is affecting every part of life. My business, my world, my family, everything. It dulls me. It makes me lazy. I use to lie to myself about how having a few drinks would help me with the boredom of tasks like cleaning, but I know the truth, it makes me lazy and not want to do anything at all.
I don't want to keep failing in every area of my life. Not when I know I am fully capable of success.
Last night I still didn't sleep well, but I went to bed at 10pm. I woke up many times in the night and felt restless. The cold sweats were largely gone, just every now and then I would get hot, so not as bad as yesterday.
Last night I wrote in my journal for the first time in a long time. It was nice to put my mind to rest before I turned out the light.
To another day!