- several good job I have no career path at the moment
- my mental health
- my family
-my moral compass
- my identity i have no idea of who I am and at 40 its so awful
- my health physically im destroyed going tru several kidney infections
- three suicide attempt
- a stay of 4 day at a mental hospital
- my marriage and the happiness of my spouse
- my sense of reality and self
- money
- opportunities
- care for my pets
- awful decision making and completely paralysis
- my reputation ( everybody knows I am a drunk and I know the looks)
- my will
- my enphaty i am a shell of a person and I don't give a F about anything
- my potential ( i could have been great you know)
- my self love I hate myself in a daily basis
- my life I have wasted so much time and di not made anything of myself
- my nice skin my hair my figure
- my body I use to be an athletic
- my peace
-my hope
-my faith (why did God let this happen to me?)
- my rationality
- my happiness
- the ability to have kids
- my friends
- anything social I am an introvert who like to drink alone
- it isolate me
- my own soul
so much more too