Doris - congratulations on day 2. Its hard, it really is. I'm on day 4 after being sober for 17 months and the first thought of suicide was with me on Monday - I truly wanted to die, felt if I was cut open I would be hollow inside as that's how I felt. But I know there is a solution for me and that's AA and the 12 step programme. I don't want to die, the drunk me does......I'm not that same person and one of my group members told me this amazing piece of information last night. I'm not drunk, full of regret, selfish. egotistical, judgemental peace - I'm a mum, inside of me there is goodness, I have hope again.
I wish you every bit of luck.
Peace x