Old 01-18-2019, 11:54 PM
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Ken33xx
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Originally Posted by soberFitness View Post
Hello all

I have been reading the original Rational Recovery book, the AVRT stickies, and using AVRT to stay sober.

I have a Big Plan.

I am having trouble grasping at the concept of making a one time permanent decision. Not because I don’t want to, but because that seems logically impossible.
I can’t make a choice for a year from now, just as I can’t go for a job one year from now. I can plan to go for a jog one year from today’s but when that day comes, I have to choose to stick by my plan.

Live is only lived one day at a time.
I am not disparaging AVRT or permanent recovery
I’m asking how to get it...
I want a final, permanent decision

But it doesn’t feel like my AV is preventing me from a future choice
It feels like simply the laws of reality/physics

That I can make a Big Plan
But then I have to use AVRT one day at a time

I don’t understand the permanence aspect
It’s impossible to guarantee anything in life

Please help!
I tell myself I am not drinking today. Forget tomorrow. I am not drinking just for today.

I can instinctively grasp this concept and it has served me well over the years.
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