Hi Realest,
The search for the meaning in life has puzzled people for thousands of years because usually we all look in the wrong place: ourselves. Only God the creator of life can reveal your purpose here on earth. We are all "Godwired." We all know that there is something grander out there than we . To know God we need to have a relationship with Him. It is by Faith in Jesus Christ that we can do this. I only know this way.
Ask for Him to come into your life. Be a friend. Learn all you can about Him.
Thank him for giving you the Gift of Sobriety. It is by His will, not ours that we can come to see Him.
It is just the beginning.