sweetichick- good for you for coming here! As Mantalady said..the more you do it the easier it will get. Just work on getting through one day. Do you have any hobbies? Anything you like to do? I know for me if I exercise it really helps me mentally. Unfortunately I broke my leg two months ago and could not do anything at all for 7 weeks.Finally got the cast off last week and was able to go swimming yesterday. Just plunging into that water and being able to move my legs was so freeing. If there is anything...anything you enjoy doing in life that you can fall back on when the AV voice hits? Thinking of you.......