Its not that controversial
I think everyone tries moderation - some of us try it endlessly.
Most of us have success , at least for a short while - usually just long enough for us to brush over those times when we don't moderate as strictly as we planned...
Before long we're back at square one or worse.
I recommend Allen Carrs book or Jason Vale's - both of them look at what alcohol is actually giving us as opposed to what we think or hope it is.
I understand Annie Graces Naked Mind book covers much of the same territory.
There are some good threads about moderation here too. Lessgravity had one not so long ago:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...oderation.html (My guide to moderation)
here is an older science based thread
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...nd-mirage.html (My view on moderation - the science behind the mirage)
and some personal testimonies:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...e-drinker.html (Can an alcoholic become a 'moderate' drinker?)
This is a really good thread to read - read it through to the end
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-drinking.html (Maturing out, moderate drinking)
It makes me sad, but you're going to do whatever you've already decided to do bringmeback.
I hope it works out - if it doesn't I hope you'll set your pride aside and come back and ask for help, cos you'll find it here
My own line? My desire for alcohol stole the things I loved from me, it destroyed my relationships, it stole my hope and trashed my reputation.
If that was a friend you'd kick them to the curb and never look back.
If I was still trying to find a place for alcohol in my life, I'd have to think I'm still suffering from the condition of alcoholism...not getting better from it.
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