Hi Wamama,
Doing Step 4 for the first time and getting grouchy is a real thing. My sponsor, my home group and from my own experience there is a lot that starts going on in approaching this deeper stuff we haven't taken a close look at before. Some people don't experience it like this. Many do. HP guides us through in many ways.
“Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”
What helps with your depression, especially during these winter months?
the scope of me making a huge leap and opening up to him, and him using it to hurt me, is a huge thing.
Him hurting you is not okay. Period.
I'm sick of waiting for him to get his crap together!
You don't need to.