Happy new year to everyone!
I hate reading my old posts here.. I was not doing well in terms of just handling my emotions. I relapsed early October and smoked one pack in a day, but have not smoked at all since then and that seemed to break whatever spell I was still under. I don't still think about it like I used to, and don't have any desire to go back to it. Nasty stuff though, in some ways I think this was harder than quitting drinking for me.