Dee74

I think if you went back through your posts you'd see that quite a few things got better

I had to have faith so that even when it felt like things would never change, I still stayed on the right road.

Things do get better - noine would stay sober if they didn't. They may not get better immediately tho - it take more than a few weeks... I think things began to turn for me at 90 -120 days sober.

Drinking made me expect immediate gratification., I forgot the value of persistence faith and effort.

Try not to let despair overwhelm you.
Some things take time to change - but they're worth waiting for

what if the answer is not to dull the feelings, but actively face and deal with them, engage them and move through them to a new level of happiness peace and contentment otterisland?

Everyone trying to help - and none of us is clairvoyant

I really think you'll be amazed how much better things could be in 6 months if you commit to not taking a drink, no matter what, and in doing whatever it takes to be happily sober...including maybe finding a new therapist.

If things are still crap then, you have my permission to come back and smack me all around the forum

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