Originally Posted by
LaceyDallas 
What every addict wants- to live with it. To have your poison in your life, and control it.
I wanted that for a long time too - or at least I thought I did. But it turns out that once I accepted that I couldn't have it, then everything changed. Not only did I not want it anymore, but I'd do anything so I never have to have it in my life again.
The struggle to control it will destroy you though, no matter what your poison - thats a iron-clad guarantee.