I started smoking dirty cigarettes again.
It started as one here or there and slowly crept back up to half a pack a day. Been going on for a few months and I already hate it again.... so now I need to quit... again....
It started at work, where we are going through a work disruption and strikes right now, so there's been a lot of stress and uncertainty. I haven't been handling it well - but smoking dirty cigarettes isn't helping and it's not going to help.
As I get ready to write out my BP for cigarettes, I can "hear" my AV sending me anxiety about Monday and how I won't be able to abstain once I get to work, but screw you tobacco AV, Yes I will! You aren't the boss of me!
IT's also telling me to wait until all this work stress is over, wait till NY's, wait till tomorrow, or next week, but not today, not right now, this very minute. But I say yes, right now, I will never pick up another dirty cigarette and light it up and inhale it into my lungs again. And I will never change my mind. No matter what.
My lungs are already thanking me.
Let the withdrawal begin!