;Meadow…...of course, you will feel happy, again. It is very common, for people who are in what I call the "free-bleeding stage of grieving", to fear that they will never love again, or feel joy again.....
I felt that way, once, also. I felt horrible...but, I did heal and went on to meet a most wonderful person and felt much better and deeper happiness than I had felt with that person--that I thought I couldn't breath, without...lol...
The world is filled with tons of evidence that humans are actually built to heal...just like we are built to hurt...we are wired to, naturally, heal.....