One other thing, we have a lot of information on alcoholism and relationships with alcoholics here at SR, you might be interested in reading some of the items located in the stickies section at the top of the forum. This is a good place to start if you are interested:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...c-reading.html (Classic Reading)
Also some good articles here:
Addiction, Lies and Relationships
It is said around here that knowledge is power and perhaps understanding more about alcoholism will help you come to terms with what you are dealing with by being involved with an alcoholic.