I focus on what I have for today. I don't let my mind wander to dwell on the past. There is nothing I can do about my past drinking and the effects it had, or will have, on my body. The only thing I can control is not to drink today, go for regular check-ups, eat well, lead a healthy lifestyle, etc. I always told myself I would stop drinking when a doctor told me I had to do it for my health. Then I would worry that my body was so toxic from alcohol that it would go out of whack if I just stopped drinking. It's amazing how we justify things to ourselves. 155 days sober today.