Don’t give up Bluedog! You can do it! Can you think about your strategy and what could be different the next time you have an urge to drink? Can you come here instead, go for a walk, run, drive, whatever? And wait for the bad feelings to pass? They always do, and you don’t have to give in. Therapy really helped me in the beginning because I had to co,e to terms with my past childhood and resentments. In fact, I’m not sure I could have done it without therapy.
Lots of support here for you.