It’s been a while.

I’ve been moderating a bit. Moderated today... Not sure why I have been so gone... so gone from here. I reached out for a helping hand and I got what I needed at the time but then I needed more.

Tonight was stupid. STUPID. Not because I did anything bad or embarrasing, or any thing like that... stupid because... was it worth it?

My daughter smelled alcohol on me tonight. I’m sure.... nothing bad... ugh.

I’m embarrassed to post...