Hello,
Many of us have been on here for years, trying to get sober. What is happening to you is very scary, blacking out and driving. Please find the help you need before you loose everything. It is hard, and sometimes it isn't pretty. But, killing someone during a blackout while driving....not so pretty either. You can do this, maybe write down all of the reason you hate booze, here are a few of mine.
Booze makes me feel awful the next day
I loose friendships because of my behavior
Work and career suffer because of booze
DUI's are inevitable if drinking continues
My life will end in misery if I drink booze
YOU CAN DO THIS!! Personal freedom is waiting for you on the other side of addiction.
