Hi lipstuck!
Glad to see you here. I just posted a list of all those in my May class, and missing you! Was going to PM you to see how you are doing.
I’m sorry you are struggling.
I really had a hard time, but I finally stopped making excuses. Nothing made me drink. I actually went and bought it, opened it, poured it. I acted on my feelings. Not good. Was killing myself.
I’m in a unique position as a nurse to see alcoholics come in to have fluid drain off their bellies, called ascites. The mortality rate is about 80% within a year. Most have stopped drinking, as by then their swollen tummies and yellow skin are signs of irreversible liver damage that cannot be hidden or excused away..
I pray you make decisions today that honor your mind and body and keep them safe.
Hugs