That's a lot to process in a pretty short amount of time. What a rapid descent.
Originally Posted by
MCESaint 
Today, I'm just "tired" of carrying it all on my shoulders, ya know?? I'd like to be laying in a hospital bed getting fed those lovely narcotics that produce such vivid hallucinations -- ya know, like my AW had earlier this year.
I don't mean that ^^^ -- but still, it feels almost like I'm being punished for being the "responsible" parent.
I've actually been thinking about this a LOT lately. Codie recovery seems so freaking unfair sometimes - there's no ROOM for it in Real Life.
It's awful to sometimes let our thoughts wander to ideas of voluntary lock-up & galling to think that it takes something akin to a "psychotic break" before we get to be taken seriously too.
I'm about over it myself - on my strong days I can let this roll off my back but sometimes it'd be amazing to be able to have a weak moment fully supported without it translating to "needing validation" or whatever other recovery-speak we want to throw at it.
Sometimes we just need a freaking hug.
