Thank you . This is true people say divorce takes time and it is not nice especially complex divorce as we married abroad but property and life is here. At least i come to terms with this . Neither divorce or anything else will make me to poison myself . Come on girl have some self worth. Anxiety maybe i d need to learn how to leave with this . Doctor said : will be stress you will be ill but you can manage to live with this good life. Genetic os genetic. When life is calm i m at my best. Answer work hard to sail on calmer seas and avoid burning out more. Again thank you. It became a habit now for me to check on here. I just hope i could add more staff to do ..to enjoy .. but now priorities x D