Originally Posted by
sweetichick 
I have been doing the steps and gone through 4 sponsors so don't say I haven't tried.
No one is saying you haven't tried. Consider that perhaps you haven't been trying the right things. Or that perhaps you haven't accepted that drinking isn't an option.
Just the other day you made a statement when you had talked to your doctor and you said that it was "your choice". That's very true - it is your choice. There is no magic pill, program, technique that will override that fact - you choose to pick up that first drink or not. The recovery method you choose to use ( or not ) really doesn't change that fact.
I needed to accept that I can not drink alcohol, in any quantity, EVER - unless I want to face the negative consequences. You know exactly what the stakes are - literally your life.