Chloe, lots of love right back to you! And you will get through this, you will feel the pain and the loss and not have to drink. I believe it, now you believe it. I recall a moment a few days after my mom passed, Mr. Ringo was in the garage and I was in a room downstairs and before I knew it, I was on the floor curled in the fetal position crying and sobbing. I didn't get my husband's attention. It was just God and I in that moment. After a bit, I got up. I am forever grateful to have stayed sober through it all.
Up at 0410.