Fresh, you're not alone. I've had a really miserable day, wanting to drink. I'm just on day 12. I had a similar miserable day last Wednesday. Then I had some much easier days. But today has been wretched and exhausting. But if we get through these tough days, 1) we will get on to mostly easier days, and 2) we will know we can get through days like this when we encounter them again.
Yes, I know the feeling of just wanting to burst into tears. I have felt that today.
Hang in there.