Originally Posted by
Shredder22 
Yes,
He's in my dreams now/Nightmares. We live an hour away so the only way I would see him is if I sabotaged no contact.
With breakups in the past I always thought I saw them. My girlfriends often who were enduring breakups would say pull up to the car at the light that's him. We would try to laugh it off another make believe sighting.
You are not crazy, hallucinating, or gone mad. You are NORMAL you endured a shock to your system. You are doing everything in your power to move on. You will. It stinks our suffering changes nothing while who knows or cares what they are doing. Most likely drunk and not hurting like us. Don't quote me on that. I'm not an alcoholic. Give yourself some grace Glenjo I'm right here w u summer 18 emotional roller coaster.
Very Best,
Shredder
Thanks shredder, it's great to hear I'm not going mad. That it has something to do with the shock makes sense, possibly trauma effects. It's taken me by surprise as I thought I was doing ok. Journaling and writing in here today as feeling very anxious about whole thing, even wanted to message him to see if he's ok but I'll regret it so I won't. Summer 18, horrendous!