Can't do it to myself
I am nearly through day 1 again. I nearly went to the bottle shop but felt too sick plus it meant I would have to put off my car service. I have been attending meetings online. I just can't do this to myself anymore. Yesterday after my nap I nearly couldn't get out of bed literally. Everywhere there are empty wine bottles. I don't know what I am trying to achieve except being insane. I realised that I have to stop no matter what go back to f2f meetings and get back my sponsor. If I can hardly do anything for ten days so be it. I hate the smell of empty wine glasses and bottles. I need to face up to life. I have never walked back from the car on deciding to go drink. Just couldn't do it to myself.