Yes, Venus.
A lot has been happening this summer in SR land with the entire spectrum of life challenges.
Glad you are recovering from pneumonia and Nick is doing better.
It's honestly hard for me to imagine what kind of emotional turmoil you've been through. I remember when my ex used to drink I was so hell scared because I didn't know what to expect. I remember I was pretending to be asleep and my heart was racing like hell (My, oh, my, was it really me?).
Suddenly a person you think you know becomes a monstrous stranger.
And you are in a foreign country.
As for me, as usual all my issues are inside. I can't show my pain without being exposed to comparison "It's not that bad compared to...", I can't demonstrate it as a legit reason to hurt. But it hurts.
Just like I used to tolerate those relationships with my ex waaaay beyond the tolerance limit, now I am tolerating not respecting myself enough to gets my guts together to change my job situation. Because "it's not that bad...".
Yeah, I am selfish too.