I just wanna sincerely say thank you to everyone for the reply. It's easy to know other people in the world are going through this, but when you get so much support, and people empathise with you, know what you're going through, not just the emotional stuff, but the physical stuff, it sounds weird but in a way I never really realised anyone got it. Seeing it makes all the difference. So honestly, thank you all for getting back to me, and welcoming me and sharing their own experiences. I'll continue to battle on, and there's a catharsis from posting on here I didn't think I'd get so I'll definitely continue posting updates. It really is just dealing with it with day at a time, some days are easier than others, some days I'm on top of the world and hyper and sarcastic and then others I'm doom and gloom and don't want to interact. But so far I'm coping, and I'm hoping it'll continue to that way.
So again, thanks. Your messages mean a whole lot!!