Thank you Dee, Least.
I know I can do this... Just feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. Thank you for listening, but I need to 'sound off'. The 21st Sept is the three year anniversary of my mom's suicide.
I know that's not a reason to drink. She wouldn't want that.
But I used (use) drinking as a way to erase what she did. It took me to the 'now' and also allowed me to erase the history.
That's a tempting combination. I've done my Cost Benefit Anysis, and know why I do it. Still, I hate myself for being weak.
Please just send me love and strength. I know I can do this. I just need to feel that there are others out there who have walked the sane road, and succeeded