Hi Sweeti,
I'm sorry you drank again today. I was just logging in to see how you were doing. I know you have been seeing a doctor for your heart issues, is there the chance he/she can recommend you for an inpatient rehab that will be able to help you with both the mental health and alcohol?
Tomorrow make a phone call to the doctor, open up the windows and doors, and get some air and light into your house, try to get out for a little walk and get something to make yourself dinner later.
Is there anyone you've met at t meeting who you can call and check in with? I know today's meeting was about service, and you may not be ready for that right now, but it might be something you're interested in when you start to build some sobriety.
I hope you will make tomorrow day one.