For what it's worth, I don't think you're pathetic at all.
A) You may have lost jobs but you are still out there looking for work - Good on you.
B) In spite of not being in the best of circumstances, you are trying to become sober with all the challenges that process entails and not a hella lot of resources to comfort/distract yourself during said process. Again, I say, good for you!
C) You're now three days in and even went to the gym and did something healthy for yourself instead of doing a pout and feeling sorry for yourself. Congratulations!
So, looking at A, B, and C, I think we can all reasonably conclude that you are most not definitely a weak "pathetic" person, but someone who is stronger than they realize. I hope to see you often on here.