I love this post. Totally relate and echo what Zantac said: you have a great voice in it.
It’s fun to “be bad” sober. Let that 13year old grow up like Dee said and the fun and off beat things don’t end - they begin. You get to redefine bad, which is fortunate because getting drunk is actually pretty boring.
Off beat things I’ve done sober: I’m learning to scuba dive. I started trail running. More confident at work and people have called me a bad ass which makes the growing up 13 year old swell with pride. Got a couple of tattoos that I put a lot of thought into beforehand. Started being more honest about my opinions, sober, not drunk ranting. Started wearing funkier clothes. Drove 1000 miles to see the total solar eclipse in the best spot in the country. There’s more but maybe you follow.
Once we get out of the rut alcohol dug with us, our lives can get way more interesting. That “bad” side of me now is very engaged in having more fun.