Your not alone John...
I've been here a long time, and am back on Day 1.
Sure some may think I should have "gotten it" by now.
Others see that I'm trying again. It's all about perspective.
Disregard any posts or responses that trigger those feelings of failure.
Your trying, so therefore your not failing.
What do you need right now?
Even at Day 1, I am offering support to you and others.