You know that meetings are just one leg on the stool right? They're useful, but they aren't the program of recovery. Working the steps with a sponsor is the program of recovery. When we read 'How it works' it tells us quite clearly how AA works. (Took me months of unnecessary extended pain before I really HEARD How it Works properly). How about getting back tgere today and having a think about who might be a potential sponsor and giving the step work a go?
BB
'Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program , usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves. There are such unfortunates. They are not at fault; they seem to have been born that way. They are naturally incapable of grasping and developing a manner of living which demands rigorous honesty. Their chances are less than average.
There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders, but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest.'
BB page 58