Hi Snufs. Aw I feel for you so much. I really think that you need more help than you are getting right now. I know that counselling and group stuff has really started to help me but it's by no means consistent.
Staying with a friend sounds good - does he/she know that you shouldn't drink? Also, when you go home, are there people you can talk to there?
I had a similar type bender not that long ago. Blackout, bruises, panic, the works. Baths helped, phoning AA helped and breathing exercises helped too but it was still really hard. Try and take your mind off how bad you feel, comedies, SR, company. I'm around today. Please get in touch if you want too. I here for you. Rach