Like Jay-Z says, gotta learn to live with regrets.
Good for you for not drinking.
I struggle too with feeling sadness about what I did/didn't do when I was valuing alcohol more than everything else in my life. But the thing is we are here now and get the chance to live well. Some things I lost, some things I hurt and damaged, some chickens are still out in the fields, waiting to come home to roost. But we got ourselves sober. That's a win like none other.
Thank you for sharing the tough thoughts. Congrats on sobriety. Happy to be here with you.