Trying not to look back
As I work on continued sobriety, some times I become so overwhelmed with all the damage I caused myself and others in the past. An old ex-co worker at my beloved old job that I lost because of my drinking, sent me an email asking me to a join her in a get together. She meant well and I own the fact that I lost the job, but it just hurt so much realizing how much I miss them all, even though it's been 5 years. Wrote in my journal and came here to let it out. Luckily, I have a job that is not so bad and I will not drink over this.