Amusic,
Nothing changes if nothing changes.
Absolutely nothing will change on his part because you are still willing to accept him the way he is and he knows it. An alcoholic will groom their enabler until the enabler knows everything is so wrong but they try and convince themselves that it'll all be ok. It's never ok. That's where my first sentence comes in. Nothing changes if nothing changes. Make the changes.
I've wasted 7 years of my life on my husband. I finally got out and although he still calls my phone, I live in peace and quiet every single day because I changed it. That'd of never happened if I stayed. It's ok to be scared and unsure of our future. But staying with an abusive alcoholic who makes you feel insane is mental abuse.