Rollercoaster early Recovery Day2
Yesterday was hard, very hard. I was shaking inside, out, stomach in knots, nauseated, got virtually no sleep last night, night sweats but I was determined.
Today, got out my Celebrate Recovery workbooks, prayed, relaxed, felt some better....then the depression hit me like a ton of bricks this evening.
Sitting in my room crying, reading SR and finding strength in all of your stories.
I know I can never drink again.
I don’t want to. I just hate how addicted my body became to that poison that I am sick without it.
But I’m not giving in, I will get past this...in a few days I’ll feel much better.
I just needed to vent.
I hate this monster.
I just have to hang on and keep forging ahead.
I don’t EVER have to feel this way again.
Thank you all!