Oh my gosh thanks everyone. I felt so good reading your encouragements. I went to yoga which helped a huge amount, there’s lots of meditation in this class. I was in that state where I was buzzing from tapping into the zone, whatever they call it. I don’t know but I know when I’m there. Then I went to “my bar,” to see my old friend play trumpet. And everyone said hey it’s been a long time and I said hey I quit drinking I’ll have a ginger ale. And it’s not like I didn’t think about drinking but I will say, it was as easy as that and honestly no one cared if I drank or not. It was a lovely night and I made it to bed sober. Thanks for all the wise words, and Dee, thank you for offering that spin on things I am a huge fan of finding new perspectives. There’s a lot of clarity there.
I’ve been learning to go against my nature and find a more yin middle path. So far I haven’t really demonstrated it but I think the concept is gelling