kamm

I relapsed. I should have seen it coming but I didn’t. And you know what? All the stories are true... it took me no time at all to get back to daily drinking and even worse unhealthy hiding habits.

I read through my old posts and don’t recognize that person who was 400 days sober. She sounds pretty awesome and sure of herself... until the last few posts. I wish she’d noticed it. Hindsight is so funny that way.

I have so much shame.

But I’m back. I’ve been sober for 5 days now. I’m sweaty, anxious, can’t sleep, and overall feel like poo but I’m here and digging myself back out. I’ve missed it here.