((((((Sally))))))
I don't like the name crazy Sally, so let's see, how about "courageous Sally" or "caring Sally"? Those are much better!
You are beating yourself up so much over this and you don't deserve the abuse! And you're right, when we let ourselves get sucked into our A's disease, it does make us crazy and like you said, that's exactly when we need to start taking care of ourselves.
You're going to be fine - just keep taking those steps forward.
Hugs,
JG