Thank you all for the advice. I really appreciate it. I know that the step I should take to push me outside my comfort zone is usually the best, so I guess I already know what I should do. I am just not confident in myself because I, like everyone here probably, have had such a losing time with drugs. Every attempt I have made has failed so it's hard to think that I will do what's necessary anymore to get into recovery. But, I only have this one life to live so giving up is not an option. Again, I appreciate everything you all have given me. It is nice to see so many reach out with advice. Thanks.