Hi Magnolia. I'm glad you posted again.
Many here have been through the same exact thing. We understand like no one else can. At the end of my drinking days, I was dependent on it to get through the day, or I'd shake & be sick. Is there any way you could get another doctor's assistance with detox?
Posting here really helps with the anxiety. It's a relief just to know you aren't doing it alone. You can get free of it. You'll feel so much better when it's no longer part of your life.