Thank you for all of the replies
I am still sober and working steps 1-3 currently
Life is actually pretty good
But I have OCD and am STRUGGLING to live in the present moment one day at a time
The same fear outlined above is still haunting my daily
I wish I could have a realistic fear of alcohol based on my life experiences
If I drink
I could lose my job
Get arrested
Ruin relationships
Those are realistic consequences and I am willing to accept those as possible
But he cognitive distortion of:
If you drink
It’s possible to blackout
And if you blackout you could kill someone or lose yourself in rage
That seems logically unrealistic to me
I want a respectable fear of alcohol but not to feel I’m one drink away from an irreversible mistake
Please help
