I suffer from 'pure ocd' as well. It started when I was very young as well. When I was younger it was mostly checking... Checking if the doors are locked, checking to make sure appliances were turned off or unplugged.... I would even take my hair straightener in the car to work some days because I would "get stuck" on it and couldn't leave the house because I couldn't be sure it was unplugged. When I got into my 20's the pure obsessional OCD set in. I didn't even know that was a form of OCD... I thought I was just going insane until I saw an OCD specialist and started group therapy where we did extensive CBT and ERP work. My anxiety disorder was a big reason for my drinking as well. My mind would go non-stop and it got to the point I would call in sick to work just because my OCD was so debilitating. It comes in waves. But a few years ago I started drinking excessively to drown all of these thoughts only to wake up being more anxious from drinking to just continue drinking again to numb the pain. It was a vicious cycle. I am sober almost 4 months now and I can say I am surprised at how good of a handle I have on my anxiety and OCD right now. I practice all of the methods I learned in therapy and my anxiety is actually a lot better without drinking. Alcohol was only fueling the fire. Not many people are aware of the pure obsessional form of OCD and how agonizing it can be. If you ever want to chat, I am here because I totally understand what you are going through. Keep pushing through. Things will get better!