This was such a wonderful share; thank you so much.
I've also been stuck in the "now what" ego-centric focus on the future, worrying if I'll ever find employment again, if I'll be able to make the amends I need to make and start a new life. But the fact remains, I am SO lucky. I don't know how many DUI's I got out of, how many accidents I walked away from unscratched, how many awful places I went to that could have been my last. The fact that I'm standing and sober is a miracle in itself. Thank you for that reminder.
Bless you and fingers crossed. I think your wonderful perspective and attitude on the situation will bring about so many amazing things.